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Thursday, January 27, 2011

Not Guilty

I'm sick.


Three days after returning from our amazing pilgrimage to the Holy Land I started feeling my chest get congested. And for the next four days I had the typical cough and runny nose.

But then came Wednesday... the day I realized I had a full blown case of the flu.  I felt like, well, let's just say I felt BAD.

I was home alone all day, feeling really bad, and seeing all the things in my home that needed to get done but I had neither the drive or energy to do them.

I wanted someone to come home and do nothing but take care me.  Love me.  Prepare dinner for me.  And share my affliction with me.

Me. Me. Me. Blah. Blah. Blah.

But instead yesterday afternoon my son came home from work and shared with me that the branch of military he's researching just informed him they do not recognize the high school he graduated from...

My daughter was texting asking to come home from something we place a high importance on...

And to top it off I'm feeling sicker by the moment.

But what was making me feel even worse was the way I was internalizing my kids "issues" and allowing them to make me feel like a failure.

I chose the school for my kids.

I place a high importance on the event my daughter was asking to come home from.

So today I have had to realize that life is not all about ME.

The fact that that particular branch does not recognize my son's diploma may be God shutting that door.  The other branches do recognize it.

My daughter's life is not mine. She is not going to agree with me about everything and is not suppose to.

And today, my new meds seem to be working and I plan to get to those things I couldn't yesterday.

So if you are feeling yucky today... or a little guilty over things out of your control, don't.

If you are a Christ follower, and you truly seek Him first in all things, then know that He's got all things under control.

And what may seem to be your surprise is usually His plan.

So today let's take Romans 8:1-2 to heart...

There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.  For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free... (AKJV)

If Christ broke the chains of guilt in our lives, then let's not be the ones to shackle ourselves all over again.

The free never ever need to feel guilty.

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